Tag: healing

  • Day 2 Ink & Watercolor

  • Two Steps Back to Take One Step Forward

    Two Steps Back to Take One Step Forward

    I had a difficult August. I think in my mind, I thought that once I started to take the meds for Q-fever that things were going to keep getting better. When I had setbacks (July 4th and then during that super-hot spell last month), my infectious disease Dr and I thought it was more of […]

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  • Mindful Doodling

    I feel like a kid showing mom her artwork. Nope, a 50-odd year-old woman showing her mindful doodling! Here is the thing. Sometimes, when I am triggered, overwhelmed or have cognitive fog, I have a hard time with words. It is super hard to write let alone communicate. Like many, I get irritated when I […]

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  • Long Term Antibiotics

    Thanks to chronic Q-Fever, I have to take Doxycycline for 2+ years. Also, Hydroxycycline. Fun. I have alarms I set to let me know not to have dairy within 2-hours of taking these meds because absorption of doxycycline in the stomach and small intestine is reduced significantly if you do. Sweet. Cheese and cultured dairy […]

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  • How the Fuck do You Meditate?

    No, seriously. Help me out here. Today was a hard therapy session. My mind was deeply in that blank space where I have no thoughts, feelings, and I cannot concentrate on any one thing. Listening was hard. I was there, sweating from the heat and humidity in my chair because it was rude to cancel […]

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  • Take Your Shoes Off

    As children, the instant they told us school was over for the summer, the shoes came off. If we had to go to church or to one of those places that say “No Shoes, No Shirt, No Service” we wore sandles. Rarely did socks and sneakers or those fancy church shoes with those horrid tights […]

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  • Finding My Voice (about fucking time)

    I find myself starting and deleting a lot of these posts. It is hardest to write when I have this cognitive blur. I am not always sure what started it and am tracking a lot of my physical and mental changes to see if I can find patterns to any of this. I do notice […]

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  • “But you Look Fine”

    Boy does this meme relate to a lot of people. I am sharing it because it relates to me too. For a long-time I thought I was presenting a normal human and going through all of my texts, emails and loads of papers over the last 3-4 years I see the progressively declining health, both […]

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  • Inside Voice

    We all have a name for that internal dialog that either encourages us or says all of those negative things that we think about ourselves. It is more than the good or bad angel, more the internal editor or critic. I call mine my “Inside Voice.” I see this voice as pushy and sometimes mean. […]

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  • Daily Reminder

    I need reminders. I always have a check off list or do certain things a certain way every time so that I do not forget things. With Q-fever and the concussion, I did not realize how many work arounds I came up with to make sure that I remembered things. I’ll go into more detail […]

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